Thanks for that post Jav.

It's a good place to take up my story. I think from your perspective you'll find it interesting. I very much enjoyed what you had to say and the second part of this story seems to resonate with your vision.

At the next Cura I attended a few weeks later I was singing and doing my work. The Cura is designed to help us approach our darkness or whatever it is that needs to be addressed to accomplish healing. I'd given a lot of thought to my first experience and what I felt I'd learned from it. One interesting realization was that my upset and anger were very deep. Deeper than I had imagined them to be. So deep that I began to wonder if it wasn't our anger that I was touching on, the collective fear and anger in the world. It was like an iceberg. My work to uncover and heal myself showed me that beyond even what it's possible to accumulate on my own in a single life, that all that fear and anger was tied up in the worlds similar feelings. I saw that when I dance on the small tip that's visible above the waves the whole of it was there just below the surface. I realized that when I'm feeling fear and anger it was never a small engagement, never just moments of anger or of fear unrelated to the deeper fears we all share in somehow. It has honestly shifted my indulgence in those feelings to know whats beneath the surface and the power to consume me that it has.

(Please remember this is all just my picture of it, and not a truth I'd foist on anyone as if they had to believe it)

In the second Cura I began to feel the approach of the same energy I'd battled at the other. Because I'd given it a lot of thought I took a chance and welcomed it. I actually said, "be welcome here". When I did I looked around to see if I had given permission for something to enter that would affect anyone else. No one seemed to notice. The energy started that dance of manifestation going from pattern into being and I saw it clearly taking shape in my mind. It couldn't believe I'd said it was welcome, and darted at me with menace and threat. I did flinch back a bit, but held my ground and said again, " it's true, please be welcome here". When I said that it took only a moment more and then moved on. I was thinking about what to do with it. Do I try to grab it and throw it at the altar? Should I direct it to the light of the cross? Did I need to "get it out of me" somehow. As those thoughts were crossing my mind I was quickly confronted by more dark energy. What I saw within me was this huge mountain and at it's base was a vast opening into a dark cave. Because I had given permission to the one being, many more were streaming forth from the mouth of the cave. My ideas about what to do with it became sort of urgent. I realized I'd look funny if I danced around the room grappling with things inside me in an attempt to get them out somehow and send them into the altar, but I knew I needed a source of light to direct them towards. Then I remembered that the light is in me. It seems so simple, but I'd never been so pressed by my need of it before. As I had that thought I turned toward the light in me and saw this beautiful pearl in the heavens. It was glorious. It was seriously attractive, and following my gaze the darkness headed for it. By then the cave mouth was spewing dark energy so powerfully that it was blacking out the nearby stars. Great flocks of winged creatures were filling the sky and erupting from beneath the mountain.

As they flew toward the pearl it grew in radiance to accommodate them and was like a small brilliant planet in the sky. It was incredible.
When the sky was almost full of darkness someone said, "watch this", and the pearl sprung open like a celestial fisherman's net and encompassed all the darkness in a single graceful move and it was over.

I wondered a little while later what had become of it all and in response to that thought I saw many beings start to rise from pattern into being. It seemed different than before as I watched them arise. They appeared as majestic. I focused on one and saw it become this fierce, but dignified eagle. It stood as it finished becoming and was draped in this beautiful emerald cape. He looked like royalty and all his family had risen and assembled behind him. He gave me one stern look and then was off.

I can't say for sure if it was the darkness transformed or just the rise of some powerful being into my consciousness, but it was somehow related to the clearing and transforming journey from the cave to that luminous pearl hanging like a star inside me.

thats awesome CG... i am glad to hear that!